A Little Backstory – Part III

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How Did I Get Here, con’t.

The Holy Spirit had to continue to remind me that my true purpose is ministry, which was birthed through Order Your Steps.  I had to be mindful of the task at hand and allow the Lord to lead and guide me along the way.  As the months went by, I could hear the Lord’s whispers in many different ways.  One of our church Elders and my very dear friend would send me the Spirit of Prophecy bulletins for my daily devotional.   It still never fails to hit me exactly where I am in that moment and on March 21, 2018, it was no different.

“Beloved, I want to help you see and hear spiritual truth.  To do this you must look without fear, prejudice, or expectation.  You cannot allow anything to color or distort what I show you, but rather take it at face value.  When you see something, do not add anything to it or take anything away from it.  Look with eyes wide open, ears ready to hear, and a heart ready to receive, says the Lord.” By Marsha Burns*, March 21, 2018 (https://ft111.com)

“However, when He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth; for He will not speak on His own authority, but whatever He hears He will speak; and He will tell you things to come.”  John 16:13 KJV

Unfortunately, when things don’t go as I plan (as God laughs) I want to change the plan. However, when we’re in the midst of a spiritual journey, the rules change.  The Lord will ask us to do things that are a tad uncomfortable, while we wait until He tells us to take the next step.  He takes us out of the realm of reasoning and into the spiritual realm of faith.  It is now, March and I’m in this most interesting God Set-up and I’m struggling.

And since we have the same spirit of faith, according to what is written, “I believed and therefore I spoke”, we also believe and therefore speak… II Corinthians 4:13 NKJV (Paraphrased)

So, I tried to encourage myself by speaking positive words into my life.  Every day, my journey will only get better.  I’m living my best life!

Positive speaking worked for a while, but I was having an Abraham moment!  I just didn’t know how God was going to handle this for me.  In Genesis 22, we are told that out of obedience to God, Abraham took Isaac, his only son, up one of the mountains in Moriah to offer him as a burnt offering.  Now I know that my workshop assignment doesn’t come close to sacrificing my only son, but work with me.  Abraham went up the mountain, knowing that the Lord had a plan, but he had no clue as to what would be the outcome, except that they (he and Isaac) would be going back down the mountain, but Abraham did not know how.

And Abraham stretched forth his hand, and took the knife to slay his son.  And the angel of the Lord called unto him out of heaven, and said, Abraham, Abraham: and he said, Here am I … And Abraham lifted up his eyes, and looked, and behold behind him a ram caught in a thicket by his horns: and Abraham went and took the ram, and offered him up for a burnt offering in the stead of his son. Genesis 22:10-11, 13 

Although I knew that the Lord has given me an assignment to accomplish, my Faith had begun to wain because I didn’t see the ram.  I could see the answer that God had prepared for me even before He had given me the task or idea.

I could tell you of many situations, when I thought that there may be a ram hidden in the thicket, but to be honest, I really wasn’t sure.  I knew that God had always come through, but because of what I saw; doubt and uncertainty reared their ugly heads!

Although Abraham didn’t see the ram at first, we know that the ram was on the mountain before Abraham and Isaac even got there.  In faith, we must see the ram, to see God’s answer, even before we see it, I knew that I was going to see this assignment through and even if the Lord didn’t appear until my 11th hour, I knew that the ram was already in the bush!

Stay Tuned to “The Conclusion of the Matter, For Now!”

Available for Pre-order, scheduled for release in June, 2019.

A Little Backstory – Part II

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How Did I Get Here?

In early January, 2018, I found a new zeal for God’s Word, even before the real journey began.  I truly wanted to hear what the Holy Spirit was saying.  I started to read the Bible consistently and I started listening to various sermons, especially Bishop TD Jakes of the Potter’s House and Pastor Steven Furtick of Elevation Church, who said, “Peace comes after obedience.  We may NOT experience God’s peace until AFTER we do what He tells us to do!”  

Later in January, the Lord impressed upon me to host an Order Your Steps event, a women’s workshop focusing primarily on helping them to establish more Order for their lives!   I’d always conducted workshop for small groups on the organizing process, but I’d always driven solo.  This time I’d have people speaking with me.  So what began as a fall season event with a “New Beginning” theme, evolved into a Mother’s day weekend event, which in my opinion may not have been the best time? Usually, Mother’s day is a very, very busy period for mothers and families, so most women would not be available for a workshop.  But the Lord was ordering my steps, so by no surprise, as I lined up the venue, vendors & even the speakers, everything seemed to fall into place.  My workshop now entitled “Ordering My Steps: A Mother’s Perspective” was off and running!!

As I read, God’s Word says, Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord”.  1 Corinthians 15:58 KJV

So, I knew that whatever happened from that point forward, I’ve had to see it through, but, I also knew that it was not going be easy!  From my previous experiences, God doesn’t normally give you something to do, if you can do it without Him.

Now, we’re moving forward!  The invitations were sent, we marketed on social media and life is good!  Five tickets sell, Yayy!! Then a whole another month goes by and not one ticket sold.  What do I do now?  Shortly thereafter, I woke up one morning and the Lord said, “Plant the Seed”, and so I searched the scriptures and the Holy Spirit took me to Zechariah 8:11-13.

“But now I will not be unto the residue of this people as in the former days, saith the Lord of hosts.  For the seed shall be prosperous; the vine shall give her fruit, and the ground shall give her increase, and the heavens shall give their dew; and I will cause the remnant of this people to possess all these things. And it shall come to pass, that as ye were a curse among the heathen, O house of Judah, and house of Israel; so will I save you, and ye shall be a blessing: fear not, but let your hands be strong.”

As I continued to study, the Nelson’s New King Jame’s Version Study Bible stated that “While in Babylonian captivity, the people had been subject to God’s discipline.  Zechariah encouraged the people to focus on God’s chose of Jerusalem and that God had promised to come among His people and completely restore them.  Because of their obedience with regard to rebuilding the temple, they could now anticipate His Blessing”.  I heard God’s Word, but I still questioned…

Doubt

Did I really hear God?

Did I say something wrong?

Did I do something wrong?

 

Stay Tuned for “A Little Backstory “ – Part III

Available for Pre-order, scheduled for release in June, 2019.